That Girl to THIS GIRL!!

I dumped out my dirty laundry of false dreams and fallacies and the dirty cum stained panties from last week fell at my feet...I remember the days when you were ashamed to hold me in public..that girl that was good enough to use her hips to rock you to sleep..but when you saw her in the street she was greeted with empty stares and a look the other way...lonely love all wrapped up in cold sheets..but here is the mystery...how did that girl turn into this girl..your concubine turned queen...

Letters from a Broken Heart (part 1)

How does it feel to know that you destroyed such a blessing for a farce of pleasure..? I don’t understand what more I could have done? What more do you want? What more do you want to satisfy you’re craving, or is it just insatiable? What more can I do? What more do I have to do to be honored by you, to be respected by you. Do you know what some would give to get even a quarter of the loyalty and “love” you do? I think I realized the problem you are too comfortable you are too content you have never lost anything you truly care about!! And I pray to GOD everyday for the strength to FORGET YOU!!! I want you to experience the pain you have caused others like myself…see some may say she was smart she had your child and that way would forever have an excuse/reason to be apart of your existence…I could have been in the same scenario but I want more than to be someone’s “holding on baby mother” I want a man to LOVE me for more reasons than me being the one who carried their child, I want a MAN to see me and cherish me for all have to offer. I have never been abused and mistreated by anyone the way you have…I wish I had a magic crystal ball so that I could have seen the nightmare you really are! Think about your life… are you really happy? Are you content with yourself? It is very possibly you are and if so I am tremendously saddened for you…you don’t see it now because you are blinded by whatever temporary distraction! FORGIVE ME if I am boring you with my emotional banter… I need to go through these phases so that I can move on. I guess it is a natural part of healing.