Metro NYC

Its been forever since Ive written....

well Im still here kicking and fighting pushing forward. If you know me you know im ALWAYS in New York City. I spend hours in transit between the LIRR, taxi cabs and subways! Sorry I am very much against the NYC Bus, not judging anybody who rides the bus its just not for me. Anyway one day while I was on the F train leaving E. 42nd St.(Bryant Park Station has some cute cafe like spots), I realized that no one was looking at anybody else. It was strange! Every single person I observed had found an advertisement (they had to have read the same ad 12 times lol) or an empty spot on the floor to stare at. I assumed this was their way of avoiding eye contact with anyone else. So I decided to test it out. I picked a random girl on the train to take a direct look at. I held eye contact for approximately 4 and 1/2 seconds before she became fidgety and visibly uncomfortable. She was flustered her body language read "b#tc* what the f@ck are you looking at?"........lol What if I just wanted to say hi? What if I wanted to compliment her on her shoes? or ask her for directions. Jeesh! This experience was the catalyst for a whole crap load of thoughts and questions. Why were the people of New York City so uncomfortable with each other? I have lived in other countries and I know for a fact this is not the norm in other places. People are friendly and comfortable with saying hello to a stranger. I wondered was it 9/11. Did New Yorkers change after that tragic day? Maybe the shock and devastation of September 11th has somehow created a silent fear and reservation in us all.

NYC is a tightly crammed city, everyone lives on top or underneath someone else. New Yorkers should be most comfortable with "people"... shouldn't they? Its sad we are all in this city banned together but are scared shitless of each other! Go figure.

Think About This:

Check out the scene for yourself the next time you are on a NYC train.

The Concept of "Right"

I am learning so many life lessons...

What is right? What is wrong? Throughout our daily experiences we are faced with making the decision between what is the right thing to do versus the wrong. How do we determine right from wrong? What do we use to measure?

Here is a scenario:

Your boss is making a bad investment, you advise him of this and suggest that he pass on the opportunity, however if your boss does not take accept this business proposal your job will be cut from the budget (aka laid off).... Did you do the right thing by advising your boss of his bad investment?

Think About This:

I came to the conclusion that "right" is relative. What is good for the goose may not be good for the gander ( I think that fits lol). My answer to the question above is..... For the boss; the employee telling him about the bad investment was right. It was to his benefit. Unfortunately as a result the employee is now jobless. I recognize this topic gets sticky once you make a comment like that. Many will say that the employee will be rewarded later on if not right away. Perhaps that employer will remember his employee's loyalty and honesty and re-hire him/her, or keep a position available, etc. This optimistic mentality will cause one to believe it wall all worth it and will work out in the end. I guess one could think of it either way. But has been revealed to me most of all is the reason we have been commanded not to judge any other man. That is the Almighty's duty! As humans we are not equipped to determine certain things exactly and fairly. The human mind is like a double sided mirror. Simply leave certain things to God!

So you think you are a Christian?

*scratching my head* You think you are a christian because you go to church every weekend, because you sing on the choir, or because you pray... hum..but you judge me, you think im no good, you gossip, you lie for no reason, you're so high on your "christian horse" that you forget to look down every once and a while and see if someone has gotten mangled in your steed's feet..Yes I sin! I dance I party and Ive done more than kiss a boy..but I got love, forgiveness, sincerity, and im in touch with my humanity..come out from your pews, put down your nose and help me..As much as you are ashamed.. Im still your sister!

-Anonymously Me

NYC Earthquake

Everyone knows that earthquakes are not common in the northeast at all!... While working in Las Vegas I was shocked to receive a message from my Mom back in New York that an earthquake had just occurred... I was certain she had to be mistaken. It was odd because the day before I was talking with my cab driver and he was telling me how strange the weather had been in Nevada as well. He explained to me that it had already rained four times for the year and that was unheard of for a desert location.... I listened as people went on about all their theories of government nuclear testing and weather manipulation by corporate government contracted companies yadda yadda yadda...I had enough! I emersed myself into my own private thoughts and tuned out the pointless banter.

I remembered reading the book of Revelation in the bible and it explaining clearly all the things we will witness as the coming of the Son of God approached. Wars and rumors of wars, the seasons will be all mixed up like snow in South California, rain in the Nevada desert, earthquakes in New York and the list could go on and on....

We must get ourselves spiritually prepared, I'm surely gonna try!

Why the bias?

Wow I havent written to you in soooo long!! But after tonight I just had so much to think on..

I sat and talked with my Uncle,Aunt, Cousins and friends for hours...we talked about a range of things, but suddenly I realized that we were on the topic of homosexuality; all the men in the room seemed to be in agreeance that "lesbianism" is ok while men being intimate with other men is completely unacceptable and frowned upon. My question is why?? Society has objectified Women so much; and while trying to preserve the prehistoric image of the male species being dominant they have created this biased ideology! The reasoning given to me was simply........well.......foolish! Is it not possible that the creator made us all different! DIFFERENT not only in ethnicity or linguistics, maybe we are also different in our sexual preference!

Diversity should be accepted in all aspects of our lives...

Think About This: Since the most popular argument people have against homosexuality is that homosexual couples are unable to reproduce so it must be wrong. Consider this The world is overpopulated now, imagine if every single person and or couple was able to reproduce. It would be a DISASTER! Maybe this is the way things were intended to be. I believe we are suppose to accept everyone for who they are and LOVE just the same... This was a my amalgamation of thoughts, forgive me if its unclear! BE BLESSED and you know what LAUGH it heals...

Chasing........ 'The American Dream'

Chasing this 'American Dream'!!!

I have been so amazingly blessed sooo much has happened both bad and good.

Losing love, facing overwhelming sadness only to find something even better a strong man of God that loves me unconditionally.... HAPPY AS EVER! I am watching my ideas grow and flourish! I remember when Beryl & Blake Management was just an idea...I remember when a couture shirt line was just an idea and now they are tangible!! WOW who would've known this could happen for me..little ol' me, I remember being told as a child that I could do anything I put my mind to and now I know its TRUE!! I am living proof that you can do whatever your heart desires! I entrust everything I do with the creator and ask him to guide me! The point of this was to remind you to go after the things your heart desires!!! GO FOR THE GUSTO... why not you? There is no reason why you cant have all you desire and more. IT WONT BE EASY..but its soo worth it! GRATIFYING..

Think About This: Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths! If God is leading you, you CANNOT fail..GO FOR IT

Nothing to Fall Back On!

I had a conversation with an old friend of mine and I was thinking many of the success stories I hear have one thing in common. The proprietors were struggling sometimes FLAT on their face. They didnt go to school to get a B.A. in Economics just in case their dreams didnt come true. I think if you have something to fall back on YOU WILL DO JUST THAT FALL BACK.. sooo I am gunna take the high road the risky trek with no security blanket. I am going to push myself to the limit! I have to succeed its DO or DIE....

Think About This: As far as we know this is the only life we have make it what you want! DONT LET TIME PASS AND SAY I SHOULDA COULDA WOULDA...just JUMP!!