Morning Thought

This morning I woke up thinking "If there is something called predestiny or fate,how is it that prayers influence GOD's decisions?" I know this post is short. I wanted to share this because I'm so interested to hear what the responses would be. In my attempt to answer my own question I came up with this ---> Maybe, prayers evokes emotions of sympathy in GOD. Maybe in his unlimited LOVE he makes adjustments in our fate. Maybe. Think About This: It's evident in more ways than one that there is a force/entity greater than us. Wether you believe it to be God, Jesus Christ, Buddha, Kirshna, or simply the universe. It hears and responds to our deepest desires and the things we speak. I don't know the effect this has on our fate other than it may just be proving the notion that WE are in fact the authors of our destiny. Maybe GOD simply gives us what we "ask" for. We are the Authors and GOD is the publisher! P.S. I realize that I made up the word "predestiny" but I trust that all of you intelligent readers understood just what I meant. Lol

Our Connection to God.

Wow.. Its been forever the usual. It seems like the lapse in time between my posts are getting longer and longer. I feel like writing today.

I am very fortunate to have a family member named Aunt Vernita. She is not a very vocal person in my life. However, she manages to be a quiet force from a distance. I appreciate so much this small gesture from her more than I think she knows. Almost every morning I wake up to an email from Aunt Vernita faithfully titled "daily reflections" I try my best to read them everyday but I fail sometimes. Too overwhelmed with pointless life stresses. Any way I caught it this morning and after the first few sentences I was so inspired. The verse is taken from Mark 11:23 "For verily I say unto you, that whosoever shall say unto this mountain, be thou removed , and be cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall come to pass; he shall have whatsoever he saith.

WOW! That is powerful for so many reasons.

Here the bible is clearly telling us that we hold an immense amount of power within ourselves.

We are able to conquer anything, accomplish anything, just by speaking it and doubting NOTHING... It is so important to be mindful and cautious of the words we say. Once they come out of your mouth you cannot really retract them. They are forever stored in universal memory. Speak positivity think positivity...focus on the things you really want out of life and watch them come to you. It's a phenom. Our Creator has done us such a justice by giving us the ability to create with our thoughts and words. Choose your thoughts and words wisely, be wise about what you choose to call into existence.

Think About This: How much easier would your life be; if you could just say something and then do nothing more than simply wait for it to happen? TRUSTING that the MASTER heard you and is working it all out in your favor. Sounds to me like there is no better way to live. Selah

Stupid in Love!

Its frustrating when loving someone leaves you feeling captive.

You endure pain, humiliation, sadness, and insecurity. One would have to ask, what makes you stay? Is loving someone suppose to come along with all this baggage? Is it worth it? Are you happy more often than you are sad? Do they give you what you need or just what you want? Vice Versa. Im not ashamed to say I'd rather take his bad with his good, rather than be without him.

I know "I'm Stupid and in Love" and Im ok with that for now!

Think About This: What feels good to you? How much are you willing to endure from the one you love? If you love someone but are not certain they feel the same way, should you stop loving them? Is the idea that LOVE should be an easy walk in the park a delusion?

Metro NYC

Its been forever since Ive written....

well Im still here kicking and fighting pushing forward. If you know me you know im ALWAYS in New York City. I spend hours in transit between the LIRR, taxi cabs and subways! Sorry I am very much against the NYC Bus, not judging anybody who rides the bus its just not for me. Anyway one day while I was on the F train leaving E. 42nd St.(Bryant Park Station has some cute cafe like spots), I realized that no one was looking at anybody else. It was strange! Every single person I observed had found an advertisement (they had to have read the same ad 12 times lol) or an empty spot on the floor to stare at. I assumed this was their way of avoiding eye contact with anyone else. So I decided to test it out. I picked a random girl on the train to take a direct look at. I held eye contact for approximately 4 and 1/2 seconds before she became fidgety and visibly uncomfortable. She was flustered her body language read "b#tc* what the f@ck are you looking at?"........lol What if I just wanted to say hi? What if I wanted to compliment her on her shoes? or ask her for directions. Jeesh! This experience was the catalyst for a whole crap load of thoughts and questions. Why were the people of New York City so uncomfortable with each other? I have lived in other countries and I know for a fact this is not the norm in other places. People are friendly and comfortable with saying hello to a stranger. I wondered was it 9/11. Did New Yorkers change after that tragic day? Maybe the shock and devastation of September 11th has somehow created a silent fear and reservation in us all.

NYC is a tightly crammed city, everyone lives on top or underneath someone else. New Yorkers should be most comfortable with "people"... shouldn't they? Its sad we are all in this city banned together but are scared shitless of each other! Go figure.

Think About This:

Check out the scene for yourself the next time you are on a NYC train.

The Concept of "Right"

I am learning so many life lessons...

What is right? What is wrong? Throughout our daily experiences we are faced with making the decision between what is the right thing to do versus the wrong. How do we determine right from wrong? What do we use to measure?

Here is a scenario:

Your boss is making a bad investment, you advise him of this and suggest that he pass on the opportunity, however if your boss does not take accept this business proposal your job will be cut from the budget (aka laid off).... Did you do the right thing by advising your boss of his bad investment?

Think About This:

I came to the conclusion that "right" is relative. What is good for the goose may not be good for the gander ( I think that fits lol). My answer to the question above is..... For the boss; the employee telling him about the bad investment was right. It was to his benefit. Unfortunately as a result the employee is now jobless. I recognize this topic gets sticky once you make a comment like that. Many will say that the employee will be rewarded later on if not right away. Perhaps that employer will remember his employee's loyalty and honesty and re-hire him/her, or keep a position available, etc. This optimistic mentality will cause one to believe it wall all worth it and will work out in the end. I guess one could think of it either way. But has been revealed to me most of all is the reason we have been commanded not to judge any other man. That is the Almighty's duty! As humans we are not equipped to determine certain things exactly and fairly. The human mind is like a double sided mirror. Simply leave certain things to God!

So you think you are a Christian?

*scratching my head* You think you are a christian because you go to church every weekend, because you sing on the choir, or because you pray... hum..but you judge me, you think im no good, you gossip, you lie for no reason, you're so high on your "christian horse" that you forget to look down every once and a while and see if someone has gotten mangled in your steed's feet..Yes I sin! I dance I party and Ive done more than kiss a boy..but I got love, forgiveness, sincerity, and im in touch with my humanity..come out from your pews, put down your nose and help me..As much as you are ashamed.. Im still your sister!

-Anonymously Me

NYC Earthquake

Everyone knows that earthquakes are not common in the northeast at all!... While working in Las Vegas I was shocked to receive a message from my Mom back in New York that an earthquake had just occurred... I was certain she had to be mistaken. It was odd because the day before I was talking with my cab driver and he was telling me how strange the weather had been in Nevada as well. He explained to me that it had already rained four times for the year and that was unheard of for a desert location.... I listened as people went on about all their theories of government nuclear testing and weather manipulation by corporate government contracted companies yadda yadda yadda...I had enough! I emersed myself into my own private thoughts and tuned out the pointless banter.

I remembered reading the book of Revelation in the bible and it explaining clearly all the things we will witness as the coming of the Son of God approached. Wars and rumors of wars, the seasons will be all mixed up like snow in South California, rain in the Nevada desert, earthquakes in New York and the list could go on and on....

We must get ourselves spiritually prepared, I'm surely gonna try!

Why the bias?

Wow I havent written to you in soooo long!! But after tonight I just had so much to think on..

I sat and talked with my Uncle,Aunt, Cousins and friends for hours...we talked about a range of things, but suddenly I realized that we were on the topic of homosexuality; all the men in the room seemed to be in agreeance that "lesbianism" is ok while men being intimate with other men is completely unacceptable and frowned upon. My question is why?? Society has objectified Women so much; and while trying to preserve the prehistoric image of the male species being dominant they have created this biased ideology! The reasoning given to me was simply........well.......foolish! Is it not possible that the creator made us all different! DIFFERENT not only in ethnicity or linguistics, maybe we are also different in our sexual preference!

Diversity should be accepted in all aspects of our lives...

Think About This: Since the most popular argument people have against homosexuality is that homosexual couples are unable to reproduce so it must be wrong. Consider this The world is overpopulated now, imagine if every single person and or couple was able to reproduce. It would be a DISASTER! Maybe this is the way things were intended to be. I believe we are suppose to accept everyone for who they are and LOVE just the same... This was a my amalgamation of thoughts, forgive me if its unclear! BE BLESSED and you know what LAUGH it heals...

Chasing........ 'The American Dream'

Chasing this 'American Dream'!!!

I have been so amazingly blessed sooo much has happened both bad and good.

Losing love, facing overwhelming sadness only to find something even better a strong man of God that loves me unconditionally.... HAPPY AS EVER! I am watching my ideas grow and flourish! I remember when Beryl & Blake Management was just an idea...I remember when a couture shirt line was just an idea and now they are tangible!! WOW who would've known this could happen for me..little ol' me, I remember being told as a child that I could do anything I put my mind to and now I know its TRUE!! I am living proof that you can do whatever your heart desires! I entrust everything I do with the creator and ask him to guide me! The point of this was to remind you to go after the things your heart desires!!! GO FOR THE GUSTO... why not you? There is no reason why you cant have all you desire and more. IT WONT BE EASY..but its soo worth it! GRATIFYING..

Think About This: Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths! If God is leading you, you CANNOT fail..GO FOR IT

Nothing to Fall Back On!

I had a conversation with an old friend of mine and I was thinking many of the success stories I hear have one thing in common. The proprietors were struggling sometimes FLAT on their face. They didnt go to school to get a B.A. in Economics just in case their dreams didnt come true. I think if you have something to fall back on YOU WILL DO JUST THAT FALL BACK.. sooo I am gunna take the high road the risky trek with no security blanket. I am going to push myself to the limit! I have to succeed its DO or DIE....

Think About This: As far as we know this is the only life we have make it what you want! DONT LET TIME PASS AND SAY I SHOULDA COULDA WOULDA...just JUMP!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

I cant believe it 2011 is just couple of hours away its 9:33pm and I am ready to bring in this NEW YEAR with a BANG!! FORGIVING AND FORGETTING all those who have hurt me or brought me grief...Seeking forgiveness from all those I may have done wrong. I am picking up the pace for 2011! I feel it deep within me all that I aspire for in life will be mine! AMEN God has been good and he deserves all the GLORY we are at the cusp of a NEW BEGINNING!
TOAST TO NEW BEGINNINGS
LOTS AND LOTS OF LOVE AND PROSEPERITY TO YOU ALL!

Think About This: NEVER TAKE SECOND CHANCES FOR GRANTED! THERE MAY NOT BE A THIRD!!

TOP 10 QUESTIONS IN SEX (MEN EDITION)

This is a list that was put together after many months of asking..hope you enjoy!

QUESTION #1- DO WOMEN LIKE IT BETTER WHEN WE STROKE(IN & OUT) OR GRIND?

QUESTION#2- WHY IS IT SUCH A PROBLEM TO GET YOU ALL TO SWALLOW?

QUESTION#3-DO YOU PREFER DEPTH aka LENGTH or WIDTH aka THICKNESS?

QUESTION#4-DO WOMEN FAKE ORGASMS MORE THAN NOT?

QUESTION#5-WHAT DO WOMEN PREFER FU*K#NG, HAVING SEX, OR MAKING LOVE?

QUESTION#6-WHY IS FOREPLAY SO IMPORTANT? CANT YOU JUST GET TO THE GUSTO??

QUESTION#7-IS IT TRUE THAT YOU GUYS CAN KEEP YOUR PUNNIES TIGHT BY DOING SOME SORT OF VAJAYJAY EXCERCISE?? IF SO THATS DANGEROUS!! WE CAN GET TOTALLY FOOLED!!

QUESTION#8-WHEN WOMEN SAY THAT THEY ARE NOT IN THE MOOD IS IT REALLY BECAUSE WE ARE NOT DOING THAT GREAT OF A JOB?

QUESTION#9-WHEN WOMEN ARE QUIET IS THAT A SIGN THAT YOU ARE NOT FEELING THE MOTION OF THE OCEAN?

QUESTION#10-WHICH POSITION DO MOST WOMEN ENJOY MORE BEING ON TOP OR DOGGY STYLE?

**MEMO** yes this post was written by me Nardia Blake and yes I am a women but I got these questions from men so I wrote it from a males perspective!
Leave a comment and give us the answers to these questions you never know you may change someones life lol

Fading!!

I finally got the answers I was always looking for....it relieves the ache in my heart.
Its similar to experiencing a death of a friend or loved one.....as time goes on you begin to notice that the sound of their voice or smell of their skin doesnt come to mind with the same ease as in the past. I love you too always will but babe you are fading away...I reach for you but my finger cant grasp....you are a silhouette a fading image from my memory...it used to make me sad!...NOW I KNOW ITS JUST NECESSARY!!


Think About This: Let them go...Let them all go....they will find their way home!

Anarchy..not as sweet as it sounds!

I was utterly stumped..which is a rarity, because I am a person that always has something to say about something. For the first time I can remember all of my words and thoughts were caught in the bottom of my brain. This writing assignment was a difficult one for me, maybe it was because of the openess and loose guidelines. My thoughts began to wonder outside of writing the essay. After going back and forth in my mind for a while it occurred to me..BING!..there are all kinds of people with varying personalities right? I then began to think about what kind of person I was. Was I person that needed rules, regulations and guidelines?. Am I a person that struggles when options are left open to me? I always despised authority growing up and cant say I am much of a fan now but oddly enough this final essay made me appreciate guidelines, rules, and authority..this thing is kind of a "neccessary evil" if you will. There was a time when anarchy was the greatest concept known to man; in my opinion. WRONG!!

The acceptance of authority, guidelines and rules is a strange but peaceful transition.

Think About This: How chaotic and stressful would life be if we had to do nothing more than respond to our own animalistic desires and urges!! hummmmph

SILENCE

SILENT!!

DONT YOU DARE UTTER A SOUND

SEE SOMETIMES SILENCE IS ALL YOU HAVE LEFT THE ONLY THING PROFOUND

I BET THEY START TO UNDERSTAND ONCE YOU FALL SILENT

SEE ONLY IGNORANT MINDS CORRELATE SILENCE TO DEATH

SEE THOSE OF INTELLIGENCE KNOW THIS ONE THING BEST THAT SILENCE IS THE GREATEST CHANGER OF THINGS AND I AS I WENT BACK AND FORTH...BACK AND FORTH..BACK AND FORTH IN MY MIND OVER PAST EVENTS

I BEGAN TO REALIZE I HAD SAID IT ALL...DONE IT ALL..BUT NEVER BEEN SILENT!!

I am HER..just HER

Broken hearts bleeding

wanting nothing more than to be repaired

Hopes and dreams fleeting pushed away in aborted strollers

Regret overwhelming

Dont you remember? Why cant you remember? how to treat your women with respect

Admire their intellect

It must have been something you learned on the slave ships of history

Dont do that to me!

Close your eyes and watch the scene play on your eyelids SLOW MOTION

Watch close...

as they ripped away semen stained panties they took our dignity from virgin waistlines and hips

Thats what it is RAPE nothing less than RAPE

Stripping me of my esteem

Breaking my dreams in tiny pieced smithereens

Everytime you disrespect me you rape me

Dont you know I would have done anything for you

LOVE

I wanna learn like let me teach you like you teach me

like for always, always for, like I got you, you got me, like symmetry, like I need you...I want you

BROKEN!

Its not my fault I am not the alcoholic father who left you or the niggas on the corner who punked you..I am not that one the one who abandoned you..I am not your wet dream figment of a lover.

I am your reflection, your antimatter, your nurturer,I am your fire, I am your calm, I am your strength.....and friend.

So the next time you move to disrespect...close your eyes and remember before you were a king you lived within a QUEEN!

I AM HER..I AM HER...JUST HER

Sometimes You Just Get Angry!!!

These are the moments....
You Know...You know
when emotions flow thru my fingertips with ease and have the magical essence of poetries
NOT ancient stories or sililoquies
but that deep BURN-NING
Ya know YEARN-NING
for your affection
How dumb of me
so blinded by what my fucked up daddy taught me real love looked like
I didnt realize your not even mother fucking worthy
As you push me away I feel my insides getting cold
Im telling you bro
you might want to reconsider becoming my foe!

Think About This: just put the pencil to the paper and write your feelings its the best therapy even if no one else understands its the best release..JUST TRY IT!

MY PASSION..TAKE A LOOK

FEEL BLESSED!!!

I am so blessed and today for the first time in a while I felt it accepted it and owned it! I claimed it from the almighty, I feel sorry for those who have done things to cause me pain or hurt me...because my creator says he will cut those down that try and hurt his children. HALLELUJAH...AMEN!! Its hard sometimes when you are facing adversity to see the light in it all but be reminded you are blessed and the moment you forget it you leave yourself susceptible to the vultures and leeches that are out there with nothing better to do than to try and steal your joy!

Think About This: Always stay in the light...be certain to NEVER FORGET who you are and whose you are!! SELAH

A Goodbye Letter

Saying goodbye is one of the hardest things we encounter in our lives. "Goodbyes" come in all varieties...some final, like when a loved one passes away...while others are temporary like when you go away to college. But this goodbye is strange. Its not related to death or a "see ya later" kinda thing. Its a sort of bittersweet morsel of time, that you regret and are grateful for. ITS STRANGE thats for sure. Can you imagine the joy a prisoner feels when he is set free..I cant imagine a GREATER or more ANTICIPATED goodbye, but what do we make of the prisoner beginning to miss his capturer... STRANGE ISNT IT! Anyway....

GOODBYE DEAR FRIEND I WILL MISS YOU ALWAYS

your face will come to mind with the oaky smell of brandy, or the scent of expensive cologne. I will think of you when I see the men of Manhattan walking with their trench coats and coffee or when I bite into a slice of warm apple pie. You may wonder the reason... and there is more than one I suppose

GOODBYE MY DEAR FRIEND.....this is just the way it goes!

Think About This: Be STRONG enough to hold on for as long as you can and WISE enough to know when to let go.